is it it ?

assalamualaikum w.b.t frenss .

may Allah s.w.t bless you and always be in a good state .

well , it is regarding the thing the i've been pouring , doodling in my last entry ..

since the call from my mom , i've been doing salatul istikharah (solat sunat istikharah) .

i'll do it most of the time after pray .

i'm begging Allah s.w.t to show me the path that i should follow .

i'm nothing but a clueless person about what is going to happen in the future .

so , i'll be needing HIS guide .

till now , i didn't get any dream when i'm asleep .

today , when i'm walking towards my car *my brother's car* after finishing my class ,

after saying goodbye to Adib and promising to meet her tomorrow .

suddenly i felt uneasy . feels like something is going to happen .

so i get into the car and sit for awhile .

i really don't know why .

will i be in an accident on my way back home , is something bad will come approaching .

my chest hurt , my sweat are pouring like mad .

i felt almost something really really bad are going to happen .

i did some zikir in the car and start my journey .

it might take less than 5 minute to get at my home but so many things could happen in the road , who knows ?

i kept saying the zikir throughout my driving until i reach home .

Alhamdulillah , Alhamdulillah , Alhamdulillah Ya Allah .

i'm able to arrive safely .

but what is the uneasy thing all about ?

i've kept thinking about this since the evening .

it even causes me headache ,.

maybe i dun do zikir much often and HE is mad with me .

Please forgive me Ya Allah .

you're the only place where i pray , ask and beg .

no one other than YOU .

please forgive this forgetful girl