sometimes .

assalamualaikum w.b.t frenzz .

sometimes ,,

what i told here is not exactly what i feel ,,

sometimes ,,

the things that i wanted the most is the thing that i tend to keep quiet about ,,

sometimes ,,

i smile gracefully whilst my heart is flooding with tears ,,

sometimes ,,

i become quiet for you to talk to me ,,

sometimes ,,

i become very proud and not wanting to lose ..

but,,

always ,,

i would share what i truly feel with Allah s.w.t ,,

always ,,

i told Allah s.w.t the things that i want everyday , every time ,,

always ,,

i pour all of my tears whenever i'm facing HIM ,,

always ,,

i become talkative with you Ya Allah , repenting all my sins and praying for my future ,,

always ,,

i admit my weaknesses and pray everybody around safe and sound .

is it it ?

assalamualaikum w.b.t frenss .

may Allah s.w.t bless you and always be in a good state .

well , it is regarding the thing the i've been pouring , doodling in my last entry ..

since the call from my mom , i've been doing salatul istikharah (solat sunat istikharah) .

i'll do it most of the time after pray .

i'm begging Allah s.w.t to show me the path that i should follow .

i'm nothing but a clueless person about what is going to happen in the future .

so , i'll be needing HIS guide .

till now , i didn't get any dream when i'm asleep .

today , when i'm walking towards my car *my brother's car* after finishing my class ,

after saying goodbye to Adib and promising to meet her tomorrow .

suddenly i felt uneasy . feels like something is going to happen .

so i get into the car and sit for awhile .

i really don't know why .

will i be in an accident on my way back home , is something bad will come approaching .

my chest hurt , my sweat are pouring like mad .

i felt almost something really really bad are going to happen .

i did some zikir in the car and start my journey .

it might take less than 5 minute to get at my home but so many things could happen in the road , who knows ?

i kept saying the zikir throughout my driving until i reach home .

Alhamdulillah , Alhamdulillah , Alhamdulillah Ya Allah .

i'm able to arrive safely .

but what is the uneasy thing all about ?

i've kept thinking about this since the evening .

it even causes me headache ,.

maybe i dun do zikir much often and HE is mad with me .

Please forgive me Ya Allah .

you're the only place where i pray , ask and beg .

no one other than YOU .

please forgive this forgetful girl

Ya Allah , help me .

assalamualaikum w.b.t frens .

too much of extension in putting up my entri .

and now with my story .

what is the saddest thing happened in your life? .

well , for me ,

when your parents asked you to quit study .

i’m studying in private university so the fee is a bit costy .

not a bit I would say , TOO COSTY .

i've just started my study in november 2010 .

i’ll finish my study in april 2013 .

it will be another 2 years to finish it .

and now my father asked me to quit it .

i’ve applied MARA loan before and i got rejected .

it really gives pain in my ass especially my dad’s when it comes to paying the fee .

i knew that it is expensive .

but thinking of getting to graduate soon , hurmmm , i dont know .

i’m a progression students so i got subjects exemption which lessen my years of studies .

and started at semester 3 .

if i were to quit , i’ve to start all over again from semester one , for 3 years .

the first time he asked me to quit when i told him the sum to pay this semester .

and just now my mother called me saying that my father has the number of a lecturer

teaching in government university.

please Allah , help me out here . please . i’ve no more tears to let go .

hatiku untukMu Ya Allah

hati berdoa bertemu permata jiwa ,

minda merayau ke daerah syurga ,

bibir mengungkap kata selawat cinta ,

mata merintih terkenang Yang Maha Esa .

Al-Quran:Pemberi Syafa'at

Daripada Abu Umamah r.a berkata : Aku mendengar Rasulullah S.A.W. bersabda:

“Bacalah Al Quran sesungguhnya ia akan datang di hari kiamat sebagai syafa’at kepada pembacanya”.

( Hadith Riwayat Muslim )

pray for me

Assalamualaikum uri chinggu !

long time no entry ... hhihhii ...

astro beyond subscribed , so ... please understand .

star king , running man , dream team , strong heart ,

haahaaha , hihiihii , kekekekeke ,

urghhh !

final exam ! *bang my head on the keyboard .

ottokke ! it is not family ga-waseo anymore ,

now it became exam ga-waseo ,

thanks a lot for lecturer who haven’t finished discussing the topic and

gave us a list of topics for us to study ourselves .

there are quite a lot to cover for the final exam .

how do we ever gonna understand the theory if we were to read it ourselves?

what if the concept is different ? won’t us be chocked up this exam ?

right now i’m digesting a few topics with the help of my bestfren ,

Adib Syarah Bt Solihen . kamsahamnida uri chinggu .

nan nomu saranghaeyo !

gonna get back to study .

wish me luck , remember me while doing your prayer ^^

hambokkesaeyo !

anneyonghaegesaeyo !

Mama , kita sayang mama ~~

mama , kita sayang mama .

kita tak boleh bayang kalau mama pergi .

kalau abah marah marah , kita lari pergi kat mama ,

bila sakit sikit , kita merengek cari mama ,

kalau abe kacau , kita report cakap kat mama ,

bila ada masalah , kita luah kat mama ,

mama , kita sayang mama ,

kalau mama tak ada , kita nak cari sape ?

kalau mama pergi , kita nak merengek kat sape ?

kalau mama tak ada , kita nak report kat sape ?

kalau mama pergi , kita nak luah kat sape ?

mama , kita sayang mama .

Allah , kau panjangkanlah usia mamaku ,

agar sempat dia melihat anak anak nya berjaya ,

Allah , kau kurniakanlah kesihatan buat mamaku ,

agar dapat dia mendoakan daku ,

sesungguhnya doa mama adalah yang paling mustajab ,

Allah , kau ampunkanlah dosa mama abah ku ,

kau kasihanilah mereka sepertimana mereka mengasihani daku sewaktu kecilku .